6 years ago my mom was diagnosed with stage 3 gastric cancer. Within 3 weeks of her receiving her last treatment, my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer: terminal. Within 10 months of his diagnosis, they would sell their house, move in with my family of 3, with one on the way. A week after they moved, a day when my dad was sick from his treatments, I went into labor.
Within one week, I went from a house with 3 people to 6. A toddler, a recovering cancer patient, a terminal cancer patient, and a husband with high blood pressure- 3-6 people, overnight, all of who were looking to me to take care of them. 4 days in, I developed toxemia, pneumonia and a sinus infection…so off to the hospital I went and stayed where I had to give up breastfeeding, so more changes. I was floundering, struggling, stressed and lost after all of this. 6 months later my pops would pass and the world would continue spinning while I struggled to keep a household minus one, but full of grief, running, working, loving, happy.
Flash forward…4.5 years after my father’s death…
For the first time since that summer, I am starting to get back into the hang of who I am, who I used to be. I am not as lost, moody, unsure. I have my confidence and some optimism back. I am finally re-engaged in my own life and not going through the motions. I am not afraid to say what I need to say or what I think. I am still terrified and have anxiety about dying and my own death, but that’s something I have lived with for a long time.
I don’t know that my luck has changed, but I do know that I am okay with whatever happens and can handle it because I have survived and conquered a storm. I have awakened from the fog I found myself and will continue to fight!
Whew, summer came to an end rather abruptly and I have been slammed. I apologize for the delay in posting.
School supplies, new teachers, new grades, uniforms, clothes, shoes, and for mommy 5 brand new preps...holy smokes, the end of July and beginning of August were gone before I could blink.
We survived shopping for all that we needed; we survived our first respective weeks back at school; we are currently still adjusting to the new routine.
My favorite part of this year, besides the supplies and fall on the horizon, is that my children still love, love, LOVE school. They love to learn, they love to go, they love their teachers and they love their friends.
I hope everyone is having a great start to the school year!!
Wow! Our August event came and went quickly! We had such a great, quaint little venue, Crafted. Crafted. was featured on Spike tv's "Bar Rescue" and let me tell you, they reduced a fantastic place! Great food, great service, fabulous drinks, and a wonderful little hang out spot. We had an intimate gathering of vendors and businesses. We featured Lula Roe (and they had some UNICORNS); Wine Shop at Home (what a novel idea and fabulous ladies); and Rodan and Fields (a premium skin care line). If you would like to reach any of our lovely vendors:
Nicole Jorgensen: Rodan and Fields
Mollie Eise: Lula Roe
Jessica Jeanes: Wine Shop at Home
September 8th, we are heading to Howl at the Moon, located at Ball Park Village in Downtown STL. A Friday night, some rocking drink specials and some sweet swag! You don't want to miss out!!
Hey, girl, hey!