Going total fan girl here, Leon Else has a song I heard on Elvis Duran a few weeks ago that is my work jam right now. "I'm not crazy...I don't think...but I'm on the brink." Man, can I ever identify with that line; it sings to my stressed but blessed mommy souls. "I don't got too many friends...I don't know where they all went...but I know it's a beautiful world..." has resonated so strongly with me because figuring out my life and this whole real world and "adulting" business has been challenging, to say the least this last two years or so. Time and life has turned out so much different than I had dreamed and it was time to make some changes. Changes are super scary. Like, your gas light has been on for 15 miles, a blizzard hits and you're in cannibal country.
What two years of being stuck in the same routine with the same outcomes showed me...taught me...is that I want more out of life. I want to give more to my kids. I had to figure out how that would look and how I would get there, because let's be honest, teaching is never going to make me a literal millionaire, in fact, just the opposite in a beautiful and terrible way. I get paid by every smile and high five, but I wanted more. I wanted to challenge myself to grow, to get out of the rut I was in.
I want to show my kids that passion and determination can lead to success. You see, in order to find success in life, I have had to step outside of my comfort zone...and well, here I am, not successful yet, but persevering ever onward to make life better for me and mine. I am completely and totally in the RED zone. Making phone calls, a world of awkward. Emailing and emailing and emailing. Having real life meetings. Talking to ALL the people, live, on the phone, via text, via email...ya'll- the only people I have really talked to in the last 12 years...my husband, my kids, my family, and my students. Imagine my surprise when I connected with the cities and area I call home.
This past week (my spring break), I hit the pavement in St. Louis and the metro area and was blown away by the changes happening. I peeked in at the Loading Dock in Grafton (our May venue) and fell back in love with the whole scene! I love that it's on the water, during the day it's kid friendly, the food is good and the dock lemonade is what just what I imagine summer tastes like.
I went to the Budweiser Brewhouse and checked out our June venue...speechless how cool the whole place was!! 2 stories of awesome, with a view of Busch, almost as good as being on the field. Egg rolls that I would have gorged myself on had I known just how amazing they were. Got some birthday presents for the hubs and some "bunny" gifts that were found before easter...totally not something I would have done a year ago.
The most amazing things can happen if you let them and I have chosen to let them happen. My city and my people are awesome. This adventure is bringing me face to face with them, one connection at a time.
The Loading Dock in Grafton, IL.